Stop The World I want to get off

I got nothing.  I mean nothing that is worth blogging about.  Kinda scared to death of the outcome of this cycle.

I find myself reflecting to a future date and wondering how the outcome of this cycle will change my plans….. 

like for example, we have plans this Saturday night with friends to drink wine and order dinner at their house (they have a toddler so we have opted to stay in rather than go out) and usually it would be a big wine drinking night… and I’m thinking I will know by then….. so I will actually be getting very drunk or not drinking at all

same with a client dinner I have next week.  BIG drinkers….. hmmmm I hope I am ”pretending” to drink that night and not actually drinking.

God I am so scared of how I am going to react.

I’m so scared it didnt work again. 

no symptoms.  Well nips are sore, but not super duper sore and not more than they have been in past cycles. 

I wish I can Fast Forward to Saturday.