hey I’m still alive right? October 8, 2009
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I keep trying to say shit like that to myself to stop these stupid hormonal tears from welling up.
I am so frigging emotional. Yesterday I had to give 2 presentations and today another all being a stones away from bursting out in tears.
Dr. L said the cycles have seemed short but he is not sure that it would relate to cycle success. He will treat me none the less just in case…. so progesterone supplementation after next IUI…..
We have until tomorrow to decide what we want to do this cycle. We are suppposed to be going away to my moms mountain house with hubbys parents next weekend. We go every year for our anniversary and have a great time. If we decide to go again for another cycle chances are the IUI will be that weekend so we will have to cancel. Really hard to decide as in one case I do not want to skip a cycle and in another I think we need the break (or I need the break ) I mean we can still try on our own.
Another thought I had was to start up accupuncture again. I had stopped cause we were trying to cut back financially, but now I’m remembering the accupuncturist didnt like my short cycles either and she was trying (and succeeding) to lengthen them. I remember having a 28 day cyle with her and my norm is around 25-26 days. So maybe worth a shot?
I’ve been thinking alot about adoption also. Not that we would stop trying to have a baby naturally or stop treatment….. just it has kind of opened my eyes to doing both. Not sure if hubby is there yet but he did say he would do both…. I think hes just thinking lets have one on our own first and then adopt. I dont know, I’m feeling very vulnerable today and just want things to happen. something to happen.
I’m sorry you’re in such a hard place right now. FWIW, my “break” this summer was glorious. I didn’t know at the time it was only a break -I thought I was done- but it was nice not to wonder what cycle day it was or watch the clock and make sure I was in a safe place for injections. Not to mention my body needed a hormonal break. I also know how hard it is to do nothing so I recognize you have a tough decision to make.
My RE(s) started me on progesterone supplements with my first injectibles cycle. They aren’t bad at all, at least what I use, crinone gel. I hope they help bring you success for your next try whenever that may be. I’ll be thinking of you!!
Hang in there. I know the wait is hard enough and then to have get AF when you don’t want it throws your hormones for a tailspin. I’ve recently started acupuncture too, and am quite enjoying it, I say why not give it a try again. Hang in there and take care of yourself. *hugs*
Hey, if it motivates you to put one step in front of the other, then keep repeating whatever mantra it takes. Mine is reminding myself that, even though life hasn’t turned out the way I wanted it to, I’ve actually got it quite good.
Speaking from lots of experience on the subject: breaks are heaven-sent. I can’t tell you how lovely it is to have no idea what CD you’re on, no RE appointments to schedule around, and no meds to pump into your body. Oh, how the other half lives! Breaks are a beautiful thing.
I did love acu just because it was so relaxing for me and forced me to take some quiet time. It also made me feel as if I was doing something positive to further my chances, and that’s always a good thing.
I’m sorry that you are going through such a tough time right now. Waiting and wondering and hoping…it’s exhausting. I love acupuncture. Not really sure why I stopped going. It helped me to feel calm and positive about things. Although it didn’t lengthen my cycle, it did lessen the PMS and I virtually had no cramps or pain before it came. It did wonders for me.
I’m on a break right now (not of my own volition, but whatever). Sometimes, it can be a good thing to not have to think about this stuff all the time. It really does drain a person on so many levels.
xoxo