Stop The World I want to get off

Starting over October 12, 2011

So I just got back from my beta blood draw.  I wont hear back until after lunch sometime, but I know the result is negative. I took a test monday night and again this morning and the FRER could not have been more white.  It will be ok.  I will survive. The thing is , I’ve always had a problem with failure, hits deep on my self esteem or something.  Ultimatley I’m glad I tested early since beta fell on a weekday….

I hope we can do it again, muster up the courage and get ready for another rollercoaster ride.   Just kinda want this day to be over.